Another Year, Another Chapter

So, Friday 17th June was my birthday.

And as you can see, the title of my blog has officially changed, pushed up one year to a whopping 20.

TWENTY.

The big TWO-ZERO. Not a landmark like TWENTY-ONE, but still, it signifies the upping of ONE big old year.

The times have definitely changed.

From June 2010 to June 2011, what have I learned?

One year of learning to cope with NS, one year to love and appreciate my friends and definitely, my FAMILY, more, and one year of discovering new things about myself.

How will being 20 change me?

We'll see next year.

I Pray Pray Pray...

...that I will find fulfillment.

Sometimes I go swimming, and there is this weird old uncle guy who keeps staring at me. He stares at other guys too, and though I feel disturbed by his leering, what I truly feel more is sadness.

I just saw him on the bus a couple of days ago, and we recognized each other. He saw me enter the bus and he watched me pass. Leering, again.

And I just felt sad AND scared.

Fulfillment is important to me.

Love, not just in a partner, but also in a child, a pet. A beautiful thing, a beautiful life.

I hope I don't become that old man.

Love is a Gift, but so is Money

I was talking to my friend and campmate Melvin the other day, and I was telling him about the plans I have after I ORD. Suffice it to say, there were a lot of plans, some more concrete than others, but all equally achievable.

He was saying something like, "Don't become too focused on your career. That's a trap of people our age (i.e. the 20-somethings.) You have no time for love and soon you'll find yourself alone."

I told him, "if by 35 I still haven't found the love of my life, I'm going to MAKE a love of my life. Get a kid, basically." And teach him how to hate humanity, break out into song randomly, and love life.

Love is a gift, but so is a career. A career is just as important as finding someone, because you can only focus on enjoying yourself and giving yourself to someone else if you are satisfied in your career, and you are financially stable, and you know what you're meant to do in this life.

A Little Bit Frank

Honesty is the best policy.

For most situations, not all.