Singapore 2011

Yesterday WP held a rally near my house. It was crazy, because the roads were congested, and when the rally officially ended there was such a bottleneck of people that no cars moved for about an hour. Buses, as well, were packed to the max.

People all over the world are invested in this election, me included. Now as my close friends know, I ha(d) absolutely no emotional investment in this country. This country, to me, held nothing special in terms of my future, only in my memories and my past as a child. And as we all know, the past is good to remember, but choosing to stay in one place because of it is tantamount to the destruction of your own future.

It would do the People's Action Party (PAP) good to remember that.

Why are citizens speaking out against the ruling party? Why have PAP rallies garnered a few thousand people, but WP and SDP rallies garnered at least TEN thousand people? Why would anyone be an ingrate and go against Lee Kuan Yew, who singlehandedly built this country from scratch?

Because there is respect for Lee Kuan Yew, but NOT his cabinet. Lee Kuan Yew is the man who started it all, but he did not realize that the people he has chosen are too incompetent to carry on his legacy and prowess. Yes, I think he is great. Not many people in the world can bring a struggling baby nation to the well-known economic city it is known as now.

But if there is one mistake he has made - he has chosen people WRONGLY and those people have STIFLED DISSENT.

He has jailed political opponents. Look at the harassment of Jeyaretnam. Look at how he has dealt with Chee Soon Juan. OK, granted, Dr Chee shot his mouth off rather stupidly, but that guy is fearless anyway. He's not afraid of being prosecuted.

Then look at how his handpicked Parliament has denied Sylvia Lim's requests to revise ministerial pay. Sylvia Lim is a smart, strong woman who has on many occasions proven that her views and opinions are relevant to the modern citizen living in ANY city today.

Yet, look at who else is in parliament and heard. THIO LI ANN, one of the greatest pieces of bullshit to ever walk this Earth. Who openly HATES on LGBT people in Singapore, and YET, IRONICALLY, teaches Human Rights in NUS. That woman is brimming with hatred.

A side note on Thio Li Ann: Her story on how God "spoke to her" is FUCKING RIDICULOUS.

"I basically had a sense that God was talking to me. I had stood up to walk out and I heard someone say, 'Stop'. And no one was around me. Everybody was busy doing their own thing. I was one of only one or two Chinese girls in this whole room of ang mohs. And then I just had the sense that I had encountered God, that he knew my name and I was shocked." Thio was quoted as saying in the interview.^[36]

OK, really??

God, with a plate FULL of things to do, ranging from saving people dying in various wars across the world, to engineering wonderful coincidences which result in scientific breakthroughs, decided to somehow have a joke to tell you "STOP!" just so you could hate on 10% - 20% of the world?

REALLY? EGOISTIC MUCH?

You know, I have a better idea of who told you to stop. It was the priest who was standing to the side of the pews, afraid he would lose one more person to listen to him. It was another "ang-moh" - btw we call them Caucasian now, nice of them to have let you study in their country, yeah? - who didn't want that simpering Asian girl to leave so he could have a shot at her.

It is ridiculous, and senseless, and just shows how irrational you are. I mean, God could have made his presence to people. With LIGHT. With IMAGES. With AN ENTIRE SPEECH. It's a church, for crying out loud! His homeground!

With ONE WORD "Stop!" I would, as a rational person, search for a more logical explanation, especially if you used to be the "arrogant, arrogant, atheist" you claimed to have been before.

Yes, that was very well-done, TLA. And it was even more well done, Parliament, when you stomped your chairs and feet to cheer on her disgusting hate speech.

He has not allowed debate for the death penalty, which I find it preposterous to apply on drug criminals. He has not allowed for arts groups to "disparage the Government and its beliefs". Sorry, Tina Fey, you can't come here. Seth Rogen, you spoke the truth, but... oh well, better luck next time!

A terrorist escaped, but all that was given was a half-hearted apology - in a meandering, long-winded way that more likely attributed it to the guy's intelligence.

You are too complacent. You believe that the country is yours by default. You still keep with the beliefs of the 1960s when the rest of the world has moved forward. You think the people will forever be indebted to you. You think you DESERVE the people's votes. This is 2011. People want change. You have been ruling for 40 years. Give it up, let someone else take over. They might pleasantly surprise you. Sylvia Lim is as smart, if not smarter, than Lim Hwee Hua hands down.

The result of that is that... well, we'll see. But all I feel is, none of you is deserving of ANYTHING. Least of all from the people that never had anything to begin with.

The start of a relationship - Part I

How does ANY relationship start? How does it blossom from mere acquaintances or in some cases - which I frown upon - best friends to partners, lovers?

I know there's no manual to this sorta thing, but I'll try to break it down anyway, according to MY OPINION:

Step One: In the case of a genuine love interest (and not just lust), it starts with two people approaching each other with honesty. Telling the other the truth about the past, about how they feel about each other, how they feel about themselves and where they are ready to go from there.

Step Two: Then it's about the communication. My friend Darren said this before, that the start must always be about the avid communication. How is a relationship - friends or partners - going to even get off the ground if there is no back-and-forth?

I know some of you might disagree. It might be clingy. No, clingy is when you demand to know where a person is 24/7 every second of the day and what he is doing. Clingy, to me, is when you plan your future with him including dogs and houses when you've just known him for 2 weeks. Clingy is when you insist on knowing everyone he knows.

All I want, is just plain old communication.

All I'm saying is, "Can we talk?" (yes i stole that from Joan Rivers)

Let's not even talk about the future. It's too soon for that. Let's talk about our shared interests. Television shows. Music. Fun things that happened to us recently. Clubs and parties. Cute animals we love. Let's keep the flow back and forth. Let's keep things interesting and ALIVE.

For example, I text you a nice little chatty bit about the recent book I bought, and I wait. Two hours later, all I get is, "Haha! That's funny!"

OK, so maybe you had valid reasons.

In the case of my best friends: You were sleeping till noon! (Hi Alaric) You were watching a South Park marathon! (yes Marcus) Your phones' batteries were flat. (Hey Issac) You didn't feel your phone vibrate. (I see you Melvin!)

Maybe, very simply, you were in camp, or hanging out with your friends, or watching a movie.

I get it, I understand. For example, Marcus is training to be a 2LT now, and I don't text him on weekdays. Yesterday I messaged him, and he replied back with a response I have come to expect of him. (Good luck in Taiwan man!!)

But as a potential love interest, all you could give me after that is, "Haha! That's funny!"?!?!?!?!

After two hours, after my effort in typing that funny bit out... you reply with 3 words that take all of 5 seconds to type?

Methinks you're not interested in being more than friends. You clearly don't think there's any point in replying. So therefore, something is wrong. Either I'm overthinking it or I didn't make my intentions clear in Step One.

Step Three: So I'll tell you honestly. What I feel is happening, and either you'll agree - "Yeah. You know, you talk too much. Shut the fuck up." OR "Oh no! I didn't think you'd see it that way. I just thought I would listen to you first cos one of us has to be the listener."

And I'd either apologize if I were really into you: "Oh man, sorry. I don't want to come on too strong. I'm backpedalling now."

Or I would thank you. "Thanks for your consideration! It's okay. I can listen too. I bought a new hearing aid recently."

More steps to come... as I think of them along the way!

Remember, Remember

Remember, remember:

The worst thing you can do is become the opposite of who you are.

Not to mean you change 180%. Because I believe that is impossible to do. In the words of my Trash Drag Druggie, Ke$ha, we r who we r. From the start, you ARE who you are going to become.

But the worst thing is to turn your back on someone that loved you/liked you once. To remove all contact with him as much as possible. To be rude to him, not nice and caring. To ignore him on purpose, wherever you meet.

The person whom you broke up with/broke the heart of will watch from afar, wondering what he did wrong. And you will have left a scar in the poor guy's heart, a scar that might ruin an otherwise happy, great person.

In HAPPIER NEWS: Yesterday's BEACHBALL PARTY was fun!

Great crowd, lots of space! One of the reasons I sometimes can't stand clubbing is because of the mild claustrophobia I get in really enclosed, sweaty places. Think a Parisian department store with a winter sale in December. But last night there was a lot of space to just chill, relax, and even dance! I love the feeling of sand between my toes, though now there's sand EVERYWHERE at home!

Robin Scherbatsky was right: "Where is all this sand coming from?!"

However, a disclaimer to those who witnessed me get drunk: I USUALLY can hold my alcohol very well! At my cousin's wedding, I drank six glasses of red wine and white wine and I was still only mildly buzzed, until much later.

I guess i was full then - it WAS a wedding dinner.

Yesterday I didn't eat since 7 pm, and it SHOWED, because after ONE can of Holland's Extra Strong Brew I was out. :(

And unfortunately, there is photographic proof of my inebriation. COMING SOON!

What Happened?

Kathy Griffin said this in her book, "Official Book Club Selection", that is itself a quote from Joan Rivers, "You know, no one knows what's going on in a relationship except the two people who are in it."

So true, from two of my favorite comediennes.

Just now I was on the bus, and two gay guys came on board. It was heartwarming to see them at first, because they both looked similar to each other. What I mean is, they were both wearing black, both quite fashionable, tall and fair... basically the kind of couple that resembles each other.

But they weren't talking to each other. They gave each other mildly cold looks. And when one tried to speak to the other on the seats opposite me, the other kept ignoring him. And then when the bus stopped, the other guy got up and left, and the poor man followed him hurriedly out, grabbed his arm and they started talking in the middle of the street. Last I saw before the bus drove away was how... poetically sad it was.

No one knows what happened in the relationship except the two people who are in it.

So what happened here?

This Is Dedicated to NPH

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The Return of Couples Envy

Couples' Envy

DEFINITION: Couples Envy, noun, an illness where you look at the successful, loving couples around you and feel a pang of jealousy in your gut and a sudden need to alleviate it by kissing the guy/girl nearest to you.

After a long time away, Couples Envy finally returned last night in full force at the club!

(But no, I did not kiss anyone near me. First of all I was drunk from Bluespin, which inhibits me actually, and Issac - if ur reading this - do not drink it ANYMORE EVER AGAIN. And secondly I have self-restraint and dignity.)

But last night's Couples Envy was way worse, 'cos Melvin, who used to be my other Swingin' Single Sister (SSS), is now (semi-)attached!

DEFINITION: Swingin' Single Sister, or SSS, noun, a friend who is supposed to be perennially-unattached, a person whom you can bitch with regarding all those couples openly displaying their affections everywhere.

But yesterday! Fuck, man, Melvin joined the dark side! He flipped his alliance! He became a member of that group I mock so openly and cruelly! Him and his squeeze were mooching it up at May Wong's Cafe, and in fact, so were Issac and Marco.

Each couple took up one of those big throne chairs to make out, while I, the wondrous fifth wheel, had to proclaim, "I have a throne chair to myself, so both of you lovey-dovey couples can SUCK IT!" And then I proceeded to flip them all off.

So much for dignity.

It was deja vu all over again, because this happened already ONCE before. Me, the only single person left in the room. I was like Jessica Biel in Valentine's Day.

So of course I had another bout of Couples' Envy, besides the bout of gastric flu I already had going.

Only this time it was worse, because my SSS, Melvin, HAD TURNED ON ME!! Betrayed the alliance. Destroyed the faith the covenant placed in him. Became untrustworthy. I almost put a fatwa on his head right there and then.

Of course I'm happy for him, but I just can't help but to feel jealous and envious. It's natural I think, because it feels as though I'm the last one on the shelf.

(At 19?! What a weirdo, I know, for thinking that.)

But of course, I'm not going to rush things. The Powers That Be have a plan for me, and nature will take its course.

Right now, my greatest concern is to recover from this nasty virus so I can be part of PA Paddle Championships next weekend! On top of that, my cousin's wedding is on Saturday! AS WELL AS Timbre Rock & Roots, featuring John Legend and Imogen Heap! I won free tickets from 987fm!

PA Paddle Championships

Will be very busy this Saturday! Time to rest!

Oh, and fuck love! :)

Cutest Dog EVER!

GOODNESS ME!

Too cute for words.

Dog's FB

Fearless

In life, it's so easy to get scared.

There are so many things that can happen.

"What if you don't make it?"

"What if something bad happens?"

"What if you lose everything that you are?"

And no shortage of people who tell you that.

I believe that is how independence is forged - by seeing the What If, and being forced to live and survive on your own.

And because sometimes you have no one to rely on... it can get pretty rough.

I wonder if sometimes you'll miss your job, family, friends, and the times you've hung out with them, because your heart lies here.

I wonder if you'll get scared because they're not around you.

I wonder if you'll have self-doubts and questions, because the path ahead is so unknown.

All the same... I agree with the belief that in life, you have to get out of your comfort zone, to experience something new, to live life while you are young. God knows I need to move to USA or Canada now, away from this country which I feel is too small for what I want to do.

(If only my parents would agree to do something about it!!)

It's a good thing to want to break free to change your situation. Great things have happened to people who just decided, one day, to pack, move and work hard toward what they want.

Just to name a few: Ashley Isham, Corinne May, Taylor Swift.

I think, in the end, you should just go where your heart desires and where you think is the best for you.

Sometimes it's better to block out the What If. Be confident.

Don't be scared of the unknown, just be cautious of it.

Keep your friends and family in your heart.

Think of the success you'll achieve and what you'll become after you emerge from this, like steel tempered by fire!

To you, I want to say this: Be fearless.

Fearless

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